Where did the handsome beloved go (by Jalal Al-Din Rumi)

Where did the handsome beloved go?
I wonder, where did that tall, shapely cypress tree go?

He spread his light among us like a candle.
Where did he go? So strange, where did he go without me?

All day long my heart trembles like a leaf.
All alone at midnight, where did that beloved go?

Go to the road, and ask any passing traveler — 
That soul-stirring companion, where did he go?

Go to the garden, and ask the gardener — 
That tall, shapely rose stem, where did he go?

Go to the rooftop, and ask the watchman — 
That unique sultan, where did he go?

Like a madman, I search in the meadows!
That deer in the meadows, where did he go?

My tearful eyes overflow like a river — 
That pearl in the vast sea, where did he go?

All night long, I implore both moon and Venus — 
That lovely face, like a moon, where did he go?

If he is mine, why is he with others?
Since he’s not here, to what “there” did he go?

If his heart and soul are joined with God,
And he left this realm of earth and water, where did he go?

Tell me clearly, Shams of Tabriz,
Of whom it is said, “The sun never dies” — where did he go?

http://www.poetryfoundation.org

I originally started this post moaning about being in a kind of funk. Too many thoughts. Never a good thing.

And then I thought, no. Funk, schmunk…. it hasn’t been a bad week despite being without dishwasher till tomorrow (god, I hate washing dishes by hand)… and the dog vomiting her dinner on my white duvet cover… I’ve managed to read two books – one excellent, one so and so, I did lots of college work, tons of ironing and stumbled upon some thoughts provoking articles which I’m going to share just in case you fancy them.

The first one is about surveillance capitalism. I had never heard of it myself and it a little bit chilling and a little bit depressing but we need to open our eyes more, we can’t just be passengers:

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2019/jan/20/shoshana-zuboff-age-of-surveillance-capitalism-google-facebook

The other one is something I’ve been thinking about it myself for a while and I think its repercussions for society at large need to be understood. (Especially in view of the horrific events in New Zealand today):

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/technology/information-age/biggest-danger-of-the-internet/

If you are now totally down and are thinking of moving onto a desert island you can watch this program on Netflix (have tissues ready) and have your faith in humanity restored a little:

The kindness diary

Or you can read happy things here.

See? it’s not all bad.

Also… thinking about it, it’s not ‘funk’… it’s lack of chocolate. I’ve decided to support the boys that are giving it up for lent… and it’s killing me.

(do you think white chocolate is ok? I mean… strictly speaking is not really chocolate..)

My new favourite poem:

Today by Mary Oliver

Today I’m flying low and I’m
not saying a word
I’m letting all the voodoos of ambition sleep.

The world goes on as it must,
the bees in the garden rumbling a little,
the fish leaping, the gnats getting eaten.
And so forth.

But I’m taking the day off.
Quiet as a feather.
I hardly move though really I’m traveling
a terrific distance.

Stillness. One of the doors
into the temple.

From ‘A Thousands Mornings’.

International Women’s day. March 8th. Its story is fascinating, and I suggest you read it here. The UN began celebrating the International Day in 1975, which was designated International Women’s Year. Over the decades it has morphed from recognizing the achievements of women to becoming a rallying point to build support for women’s rights and participation, in the political and economic arenas. (www.un.org). Every year the UN choose a theme and this year is: ‘Think equal, build smart, innovate for change‘. The focus of the theme is on innovative ways in which to advance gender equality and the empowerment of women, particularly in the areas of social protection systems, access to public services and sustainable infrastructure.

Having said all that… let’s listen to some music…

… and have a wonderful day!

Do you use make up? I do… not much, but I do, just enough to stop people from saying I look ill or tired or both, which is something they do when I don’t. THE biggest palaver however, is removing the stuff… when I go to bed… I want to go to bed… right? I’m not going to spend time going through my ‘cleansing’ routine, there are plenty of bloggers our there that can do it, and have done it, better than me, suffice to say I do remove my make up before tucking in at night… 99% of the time.

…otherwise I end waking up like this:

and we all agree that is not quite the look one might aspire… unless you are Alice Cooper for real… in which case you can get away with it.

So anyway, in my quest to save the world (should be everyone’s quest), I had started getting a little antsy about the cotton rounds I was using and literally throwing away every night, three or four each night; it felt wrong.

I tried using various other methods that just need water to remove the make up (balms and oils etc.) but whilst I love them for my face… I need to remove eye make up with something more gentle like ‘micellar water’ or they get irritated and then I can’t see/read for ages afterwards. Annoying to say the least.

BUT THEN I found these very large rounds, washable make up remover pads and I’m very very happy. There are many many different types out there in the big wide world, I like these ones because they’re big and I can usually get away with using half for one eye and half for the other.

They come in a little (plastic… I know… why??) bag you keep the dirty ones in, and then throw the whole thing in the washing machine after a few days. They can go into the drier too and come in a pack of ten and so plenty enough for a week’s worth.

I’ve been pleasantly surprised by how easy it is to replace something I’ve been using for years and years… sometimes we do get stuck in a rut simply because … we’re lazy? or we can’t be bothered? because it’s easy? I’m just asking you to think about it. I don’t want to start a discussion about cotton production/organic/non organic/water wastage etc. etc., for me it’s more about reducing waste and getting out of the ‘disposable’ mindset we all have.

One step at a time.

(Ok Ok, I could have made my own out of all towels etc. and it would have been even better… but at the moment my sewing machine is sorely neglected. I’m starting to get itchy fingers but I have three essays to write before I can do anything else.)

Any more ideas I should explore? Do say!

You know how sometimes you need comfort food? The cheese on toast after days of healthy salads and balanced meals… the chocolate cake after days of fruit salad…

That’s how my brain felt. I’ve been feeding it so many gorgeous theories and thoughts, we’ve been training hard my brain and I and it’s been exhilarating and exciting and enriching and all that, but yesterday I needed a rest. My brain needed cheese on toast.

I can understand it might seem strange to get a rest from reading … by reading… but it was totally indulging and so so needed. If you’ve been coming to this blog for a while you’ll know of my love for YF and especially dystopian youth fiction… I can’t help myself …. I LOVE IT. It’s pure escapism, and, generally speaking more thought provoking than you might imagine and with the necessary happy, or at least hopeful, ending to guarantee full satisfaction.

This one was ‘ok’. Of course it’s the first of a trilogy, aren’t they all these days…. – which is actually my pet hate… the second one is never as good… as for the third one… it’s rare to find authors that can keep the whole thing up for three books. But we’ll see. I’m kind of hopeful.

All the element were there: the context of a world were no girls are born for 50 years a pretty heroine, the last girl ever born, which still needs the handsome , strong but sensitive, hero to do most of the exciting work (naturally… let’s not rock the patriarchy too much, let’s not put off the male readers who might object to being saved by a female), bad adults who have seriously ruined the world through greed and power grabbing, a world in ruin, flood, bad food, super cool technology and a cliffhanger ending just to keep you wanting to get the next one when it comes out.

The story moves along nicely, the characters are intriguing and there are some interesting issues that can be raised – if one wants to be really serious about it. Gender, motherhood, relationships to name but a few. My main issue is: how ‘white’ it was… no race diversity at all and the more I think about it the more it annoys me. We live in a society that it’s not like that at all… so why making it that way? So… a little whitewashed and sanitised. Could have rocked the boat… but no. Not at all. I do think that we underestimate young people and their capacity of understanding and tackling serious issues.

Mmmhhh cheese on toast for thought.

(Gender and/or racial diversity in Youth Fiction in the last ten years… how’s that for a dissertation title?)

And now back to ‘work’…

Yesterday it was all hands on deck to finish Mr M’s new office. What a ridiculously amazing place…

Work Poem (by Henry Van Dyke)

Let me but do my work from day to day,
In field or forest, at the desk or loom,
In roaring market-place or tranquil room;
Let me but find it in my heart to say,
When vagrant wishes beckon me astray,
“This is my work; my blessing, not my doom;
“Of all who live, I am the one by whom
“This work can best be done in the right way.”

Then shall I see it not too great, nor small,
To suit my spirit and to prove my powers;
Then shall I cheerful greet the labouring hours,
And cheerful turn, when the long shadows fall
At eventide, to play and love and rest,
Because I know for me my work is best. 

Wasn’t sure what song to pick this morning so I scrolled through my Shazam list and this one popped up… haven’t heard it in a while so… here it is. Enjoy!

Wish you all a fabulous weekend.

Today I have no lessons (something to do with ‘activity week’? whatever, I’m going to catch up with a friend and that’s good enough for me.

And it’s sunny again.

  • Something charming:
  • TWO things to think about:

And have you seen the new Nike ad? What do you think? Now, I am under no illusion that it’s nothing more than a ploy by a company which is very, very clever at trying to establish an emotional connection with their target audience.

BUT… I love it.

Sisterhood of women, the power of words, motherhood. Regardless of the little ‘swoosh’ in virtually every frame… the message is real.

I want to show it to the boys later. (Expecting eye-rolls a-plenty)

Talking about boys… and not only if you have boys, you might be interested in this Radio 4 programme which aired yesterday. I have three, as you know… and I thought it was brilliant. (click on the link and it’ll take you to the BBC page… you might have to log in, but it’s totally worth it).

https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/m0002r3v

  • Something cute and frivolous:
madewell.com
  • and something funny:

‘Transcription’ by Kate Atkinson

What a disappointment. First, let me add that I loved Kate’s last two novels, ‘Life after Life’ and ‘A God in Ruin’, absolutely gorgeous, well written, innovative… etc. etc, I bought many copies as presents. So I had high hopes, so high that I had bought myself a signed hard copy as a treat. (I’m a sucker for signed copies, soz..)

But this one? Oh dear. I struggled to like the characters (I didn’t), I struggled to get a sense of time and place and I struggled to read it to the end, quite frankly. Maybe it was just me… not everyone in our book group felt the same at all.

The story takes place during the second world war, a period that was brought to live so vividly in the other books, but here… mmmhhh… I kept forgetting the characters were living during that awful time. The main protagonist is a young girl roped into working for the Secrete Services that spends her days transcribing banal recording of ‘traitors’ conversations… transcripts that you keep thinking, and then end up desperately hoping, they might mean something/anything… but don’t. There’s a gay boss, there’s a mysterious boss, there are Nazi’s sympathisers and bad guys and bad ladies, a dog, a mad Hungarian, a wool shop for half a page… and you’re never sure who’s who and what’s what.

It’s so so boring. Bit harsh I know, but I have so little time to read for pleasure these days I got really frustrated with it.

Please please, I’m open for discussion and if you’ve read and loved it… do explain what I missed. I’m open to persuasion but you better have a good case!